Saturday, December 18, 2010

2010 Reflection (12/18)

As I begin typing, it is about 5:15 am. I'm awake as thoughts and realizations of chapters of my life in 2010 consume me. It comes to my attention that this blog, my blog, has been my solace, outlet, and writing haven for the better part of the year. I received much encouragement and enthusiasm from those closest to me as I began this blog, for which I will always be thankful.

As this year draws to a close, I can't help but to reflect on the highs, lows, love, loss, and everything in between. I've written in a post previously that 'I have grown as a person [this year]', but that statement almost seems minuscule in comparison to the reality of my universe. As I laid in bed before writing, my mind's eye couldn't help but look back through significant, personal highlights of this year; so much has been present, but I now realize, somewhat emotionally, that certain aspects were missing. But that is the reality of life, I suppose; especially when you're not the only piece on the chess board, metaphorically speaking. We move through life like a blur, feeling as if time is just slipping through our grasp; but that is inevitable when people wish days, weeks, even months away. Think about it; have you ever found yourself on a Monday consciously racing over the majority of the week due to the desire to delve into Friday and the weekend? It's a cyclical mindset because in three days, Monday will once again rear its unappreciated head. As many feel that time is slipping away, some often feel somewhat invincible. That is until the moment you find yourself in a state of hindsight and reflection. It's all very surreal, in my opinion. Despite this surreal and ephemeral nature of time and life, however, it is these moments that we live in and learn from that piece together the foundation of who we are and who we will become.