Friday, March 11, 2016

'Under My Black Skin' ~Kimster G. (Original Poem 3/11/16)

'Under My Black Skin' ~Kimster G. (Original Poem 3/11/16)

Under my black skin what do you see?
A person, a label, a construct of me?

Appropriated and broken down like a diagram,
Love what I do but not who I am.

The air is thick and heavy with the permeation of hate.
In this surreal reality, what will it take to abate?

Profanities, insults and tear gas hurled,
Gasping for breath on the ground, in the fetal position curled.

Hated, loathed, denied our power,
We are entering into the darkest hour.

You loathe ‘Black Lives Matter’ because it shouts the truth,
Rather ignore the bodies of unarmed youth.

We lift every voice and sing from our lungs.
We're more than just stereotypes of hoodies and guns.

We say our lives matter, some refute it’s a joke.
On our own words of power we try not to choke.

It shouldn’t be difficult to evolve and progress,
But mobs at rallies show a penchant to regress.

If the calm is this condition’s final form,
We’re all in for one hell of a storm.

Under my black skin what do you see?
An equal, a fighter, the strength in me?

Wednesday, February 24, 2016

Beyoncé: The Power of A Voice

You know you that B* when you cause all this conversation” ~Beyoncé, ‘Formation’ 

Truer words have never been spoken. A black woman having the “audacity” to use her platform as an artist in both video and performance to raise awareness and call attention to a climate of police brutality was met with seething fury. I’ve seen comment threads now calling Beyoncé every deplorable name under the sun. Interestingly enough, white male performers for decades have used their artistic platform in the same manner, long before Beyoncé, in the form of celebrating the Confederate flag (i.e. Kid Rock, Lynyrd Skynrd, David Allan Coe, Hank Williams Jr, etc.) But the Confederate Flag was dismissed from being a symbol of hate and violence to simply a figure of history that deserved honorable mention. The Black Panther Party, however, when embodied in Beyonce’s performance, is dismissed from being advocates of Black Civil Rights, instead falling under the gross mischaracterization of being figures of hate, violence, and “reverse racism”. (A phrase used as a defensive deflection by those who benefit from a systemic advantage based on race, who desire to prove that People of Color don’t truly have it that bad and are not the only ones put at a disadvantage or targeted because of their race.)

Saturday Night Live aired a hilarious skit a week after the release of the “Formation” video entitled, “The Day Beyoncé Turned Black”. The skit depicted the not so exaggerated reaction of whites to the “Formation” video, uncomfortable with Beyoncé touching on a history of systemic racism, displaying her blackness in all of its “Who Run the World? Girls!” glory. Most white people were comfortable when she was just singing about generic topics of love, single life and being a “naughty girl”, but the moment she addressed a relevant topic of systemic racism and police brutality (not anti-police, mind you), she was denigrated by certain members of society and is being boycotted by some police unions nationwide. The same unions I don’t recall protesting any of the various past KKK rallies across the country. The accusation is that her song “Formation” and performance advocated violence against police. The NYPD is even going as far as wanting Beyoncé to publically apologize for what they consider an “Anti-Cop performance” and go into detail about the real meaning.

The irony and hypocrisy is that those who are angered over what they view as a misrepresentation of the majority of police officers in the media, are the same ones who simultaneously bash the Black Lives Matter Movement as a hate group comprised of “thugs”, all while remaining deliberately obtuse to the true meaning of and need for Black Lives Matter. Deflections such as “All lives matter!” are cried and accusations of self-segregation are hurled into a conversation much larger than just Beyonce’s performance. But somehow opponents of her message are attempting to use her as a scapegoat for a negative social dynamic that has been present for decades. In fact, Senior Justice Writer Shaun King wrote a detailed and in-depth article about Blacks taking the heat for crimes against cops committed by whites. I feel like there are many waiting with bated breath to see what Beyonce’s personal response to all of this will be. Amid the police boycotts and uproar, outside of her upcoming, almost sold out Formation Tour and her charitable initiative #BeyGood fundraising for children suffering from the Flint Water Crisis, Beyoncé herself has been relatively quiet. Regardless of what happens next, I thank artists like Beyoncé and Kendrick Lamar for raising their voices.

Tuesday, February 23, 2016

The Art of Friendship

"Friends. How many of us have them?” ~Whodini

Or more to the point, how many quality friendships do we have in our adult lives that are conducive to our well-being and growth? Possibly not many. Friendships seem especially hard to maintain post college and prove even more difficult to generate, long term. I think once you reach a certain point of knowing yourself and what you want in and throughout life, it’s easier to weed out those who are on a differing path. And that is completely natural. There are millions of people in the world, and the opportunity to meet new and exciting people is around every corner. 

This has been on my mind a lot recently. I can say in all honesty that a large number of people I considered “friends” last year and shared grand experiences with are no longer in my life. Though the endings were the results of seemingly various reasons, two reoccurring themes I found were selfishness and an inability (or lack of desire) to communicate. I have always been a very “talk it out – hug it out” kind of person, but I have never been a person who feels one should have to chase after another person, be it a romantic, platonic, or familial relationship. If there is no mutual desire and effort to keep the relationship afloat and growing, it will inevitably end. And I think those types of endings are tolerable, especially when the relationship was not conducive. I believe that if they can crumble under superficial pressure, they were probably only meant to be temporary to provide greater lessons, or essential beacons in a certain chapter of our life.

As a fiercely loyal person to those around me, it’s hard to come to the realization that I’m being taken for granted, or to endure the petty circumstances of something like being betrayed over a man. However, I’m a proud member of team Free Will, and everyone has the right to make their own choices, be it good, bad or indifferent. The consequences that play out based on those choices are our own to deal with. I think it is possible, and a gift, to acknowledge and appreciate the more casual friendships in our lives, but still, ultimately, keep a small circle of close, loyal friends with unwavering good intentions.

Readers, what are your thoughts? Do you have a large or small group of friends? Do you find making friends in adulthood more or less difficult?

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

Vent Blog: I Spy with My Little (Hawk)Eye...

So there I was, minding my own business, grocery shopping at Kroger. I had my Newman's pizza in one hand and was smiling and waving at the cutie behind the deli counter with the other. That's when I hit the chip/snack aisle and stumbled upon this craziness:

Each of the Avengers team members have their own Doritos bag cover EXCEPT Hawkeye! I don't know if I'm more insulted that he's missing entirely or that there is a blank PURPLE Doritos bag just calling his name - and for his photo. I definitely feel like Hawkeye got shafted in the first Avengers film. He spent the better part of the film as Loki's lackey when his character is so much better than that. But to not give him a Doritos bag cover is beyond rude. So rude, in fact, that I nearly lost it in the store and am clearly venting now.

What do you think? Do you think it was wrong not to give Hawkeye his own Doritos bag? Is there a bag out there you know of with him on it?

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

Six Months of Stellar

Hello blogosphere! I am sorry to have been away for so long! In this post I am going to be hitting you with a rapid fire onslaught of the recent events going on in my life for the past few months. Hang in there with me! It’s been exciting. And crazy busy.

Since my last post back in November (eek!)  I have...

…Volunteered at the Ronald McDonald House

…Had a blast at my second annual weekend at NC Comic-Con

...Been part of a birthday party planning trifecta

…Been in a bridal fashion show where I ended up resembling my “sister” Zoe's look from the Oscars

…Helped put together superhero themed fashion show, “Superheroes Among Us”, for Models for Charity

…Been a superhero named Unity

Photographer: Galizes Photos
Dress: Retro Tweet
Crown: Day of the Doodles

…Been in a Vintage-Bohemian bridal photoshoot

…Made some more really amazing friends

And here we are now in April, my birthday month (04/29), and I will be celebrating in a big way! In honor of my love for and the return of the next Episode of Star Wars at the end of this year, I will be having a Star Wars costume birthday party on May 2nd! This is also the weekend of ‘May the Fourth be with you’. I thought it would be pretty fitting. And friggin’ fun. I am stoked.

I have had to deal with a couple low points, too, but those amazing friends I mentioned have been there for me. I have started practicing meditation and am working on getting back into shape to hopefully return to Modern dance soon.

Coming down the pipeline:

I will be attending Animazement, a live WWE event, a Supernatural Convention (holy balls, the Winchesters!), and hopefully making it to Las Vegas for the first time for a friend’s birthday!

Whew! So, again, my apologies for being MIA! This blog is just as important to me as all of the things I have been taking on in life. Hell, it’s the best way to chronicle it all and stay connected with my readers. So I will do better with posting more consistently.

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Supernatural 10.5 "Fan Fiction" - 200th Episode

It is currently 3:30 in the morning and I am up blogging about the 200th episode of Supernatural because it was, simply, amazing. Speaking as a 10 year fan of the thriller show, this episode gave me all the feels. I literally laughed, cried, cheered, and shot up in surprise at the long awaited scene at the end of the episode. If you're new to the show, this episode was a great introduction to the Supernatural universe from the collection of Supernatural stamp intros over the years, to Dean verbally recapping recent events, to the musical depiction of the brothers' lives. 

Five major highlights of the 200th episode:

1. "Carry On My Wayward Son" - This classic hit by Kansas can be heard playing in the background of the montage sequence during the beginning of each Supernatural season finale episode. The song is the closest thing the show has to a theme song and is incredibly fitting for the lives of the brothers and their journey; the road so far.

Carry on my wayward son,
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more

In tonight's episode, the high school theater club sang a beautiful cover of the song at the end of their play, "Supernatural" and the brothers can soon be seen driving off into a beautiful sunset in Baby, the Impala. The scene took my breath away and captured the depth of the brothers' bond and the trials and tribulations they've overcome thus far.

2. Winchester Brother Bond - To say that Sam and Dean have been through the ringer is an understatement. Both have died, sold their souls for one another, gone to Heaven, gone to Hell, gone to Purgatory, been destined for opposite sides in the war of good versus evil, and most recently been divided by Dean's time as a demon.Despite the low times, their bond always shines through and they always come back together for a "BM". (Hehehe)

3. Amulet ("Samulet")- In episode 3.8, "A Very Supernatural Christmas,'' we learn that an eight year old Sam gave Dean an amulet Uncle Bobby told him was special, after learning John had been lying to him about hunting. Dean wears the amulet for years and learns from Castiel some time later that it will burn hot in God's presence. Upon learning that God won't step in to stop the Apocalypse, Dean trashes the amulet in front of Sammie, breaking his heart, and fragmenting their relationship. At the end of this episode, Dean receives a wooden prop version of the amulet and hangs it on the rear-view mirror, signifying the brothers' renewed and beautiful relationship.

4. Adam - During the closing act of the "Supernatural" play, an unrecognizable cast member is identified as Adam, Sam and Dean's half brother who is still trapped in the cage with Lucifer. Adam has not been referenced for a few seasons and the brother's share a disturbed look. This reference to Adam felt very pointed and I can't help but feel like we will be seeing/hearing about Adam again very soon. And I imagine that he will be Pissed, with a capital P.

5. Chuck - The moment that will be on everyone's mind and a major topic of conversation for days was the appearance of Chuck! Speculation has run rampant that former prophet Chuck Shurley, the author of the Supernatural books, is actually God. As there can only be one prophet at any given time, Kevin Tran's time as a prophet seemingly implied that Chuck had died. After narrating the events of 5.22 "Swan Song," Chuck appears dressed in white musing on the difficulty of getting endings right. He then just vanishes. Chuck's reemergence tonight could mean so many wonderful things and I can't wait to see what the Supernatural writers have in store for fans with Chuck's storyline.

How did you feel about the episode? What were your thoughts and what did you enjoy seeing?

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